Demi Lovato is opening up about the physical toll of her 2018 overdose and subsequent hospitalization.
In a trailer for her YouTube docuseries “Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil” (due March 23), the singer, 28, reveals details of her health ordeal.
“I had three strokes,” she says in the trailer for “Dancing.” “I had a heart attack. My doctors said that I had five to ten more minutes.”
At a Television Critics Association panel Wednesday, she said the ordeal left her with brain damage, adding the effects still linger.
“I don’t drive a car, because I have blind spots in my vision,” she said. “I also, for a long time, had a really hard time reading. It was a big deal when I was able to read out of a book, which was, like, two months later because my vision was so blurry.
“I dealt with a lot of the repercussions, and I feel like they kind of are still there to remind me of what could happen if I ever get into a dark place again,” she continued. “And I’m grateful for those reminders, but I’m so grateful that I was someone that didn’t have to do a lot of rehabbing. The rehabbing came in the emotional side, and the therapeutic side internally, and I did a lot of work after that… just not physical.”
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In July 2018, Lovato was hospitalized for an overdose just a month after she admitted in her single “Sober” that she had relapsed. Lovato wrote two weeks later in a since-deleted Instagram post, “I want to thank God for keeping me alive and well. I have always been transparent about my journey with addiction. What I’ve learned is that this illness is not something that disappears or fades with time. It is something I must continue to overcome and have not done yet.”
Lovato recounted the night she decided to drink again on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” in March 2020, noting her struggles with an eating disorder played a large part.
“I realized that over time as the things with the eating disorder were getting bad, over the years it progressively got worse… It led me to being really, really unhappy. My bulimia got really bad,” she said. “I asked for help and I didn’t receive the help that I needed. So here I am, sober, and I’m thinking to myself, ‘I’m six years sober but I’m miserable. I’m even more miserable than when I was drinking, why am I sober?’ “
Lovato previously teamed with YouTube for the release of her 2017 documentary “Demi Lovato: Simply Complicated.”
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Lovato told reporters Wednesday a desire to help fans on similar journeys fueled her decision to talk openly about her experience.
“Over the past couple years, I’ve heard a lot of stories about my life and what people think has happened, and I wanted to set the record straight,” she said, “and I wanted to reveal it all for my fans and say, ‘Hey, this is who I am, and this is where I’m at today, and this is the journey that got me here. And if it helps you, then I hope that it can,’ because… my purpose in putting this out was to be able to help people that have been on the same path as I have.”
Lovato also addressed the motivation for bringing raw honesty to her music, explaining: “I’m a truth teller, and truth tellers on this planet help other people seek truth within themselves. If we don’t acknowledge our feelings, if we’re not vulnerable with other people, we’re never going to experience the internal growth that we need to survive and that we need to help make this world a better place for other people.”
Contributing: Sara M. Moniuszko
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